Playing "catch up"

Okay so I haven't blogged since last week and I never posted a "Friday Fiction" piece. The one I'm working on is an old piece I wrote, but it's kind of long, which is why it's taking a while for me to re-type it on here.

So far at school, things haven't gotten much better.

Joe: He still asks for hugs now and then, but he doesn't act as obsessed as Cassie and I prodicted he would. I think it's because I've been ignoring him a little bit, but I make it seem like I just don't notice him...and not on purpose. That's seemed to make him back off quite a bit, which is fine with me. More than fine, really...

Jason: Since the Corn Maze, he's hugged me once, and I'm not sure it could even classify as a hug. I can't really describe it, but from the vibes I'm getting from him, he's hesitant about touching me becaue he wants to play it cool. Jason is one of those guys who comes off as a "playa", (as I've said before), so when he likes a girl, he ignores her. That's his tactic, and it's somewhat similar to mine. I'm never the first one to make a move. Anyway, I have no idea if he still likes me right now or not, and I don't plan on asking. I guess I still like him, but if I had to make a list, he would be my third preference out of the guys that like me.

Casey: He acts like he likes me...but he also acts like he has a crush on evey other girl he sees. I hate that. I know I do it to an extent, but people know my motives for acting the way I do, and if they don't, then perhaps they should look harder. Anyway, Casey is another mystery to me. I would date him, but I just have this feeling that it wouldn't last long. He's too much of a loose cannon, and I couldn't handle that. Jake was like that, and it made me nervous. That's one reason we only lasted three weeks... ANYway... I need to know what Casey's thinking before I can really determine anything for myself. Plus, he hasn't even asked me out, so I'm thinking nothing's even gonna happen where he's concerned.


Jay: Jay...Jay Jay Jay... I like saying his real name much more than I like saying his protective name that I've given him. He's been...different...still. I have no idea what he's thinking, and I hate that to no end...just like I hate that Casey's a huge flirt. That's one of the reasons I like Jay so much. If he likes a girl, he won't let on. When he liked me, it was different because he expressed it online. Then again, when he officially liked me, it was a Friday night and we weren't going to be able to see each other until Monday. But he ended up being sick on Monday, so he wasn't at school. When I talked to him that night, he said he'd been waiting for me to get home so we could IM. He said that he worked at home just so he could be there when I got back. I miss that side of him terribly, but I guess I screwed it up and now things are just plain sucky. But the point is, if that other girl wouldn't have shown up just then, he might've shown his affection towards me on Tuesday, but wouldn't ya know it? Monday night, she ruins everything at the exact moment that I start to be a little happy.

*Sigh*

You know, I have my choice of guys. I'm well aware of this, but still, Jay is the one I want the most. Even though I know Jason will actually hold me and be sweet to me, and Casey actually talks to me all the time and hugs me and tickles me, Jay is still my number one. No joke. If Casey asked me out, right now, I think I would say yes, but if by some wacko miracle Jay asked me out while I was with Casey, I would be very tempted to leave Casey for Jay. I feel horribly ashamed saying this, but I know it's the truth. The only reason I would be so quick to leave Casey is because I know how fast Jay can change his mind, and I'm always afraid of somehow missing out on a chance to be with him. I would take him in a second if he asked me to. It seems like even though I keep saying I've lost faith in the possibility of a relationship with Jay, I'm still hoping that he'll come back to me some how. What does this mean? I have no idea, and I'm a little hesitant to know....

Any ideas?

The most interesting Halloween I've ever had. This is a long one...

Okay I didn't post anything in my other blog this week, but I'll be sure to do it next Friday.

Halloween was fun and not fun and awkward and pleasant all at the same time. You ever had that happen to you? Yes, I went to the Corn Maze and everything, but out of everything that I could've thought of happening, no matter how unlikely, I was soooo not prepared for this.

You ready for this? Last night, I went to the Corn Maze with 10 other people. (Again, I'll change all the names because you never know...or rather, I never know...) Kate is the one who invited me to the whole thing, and then I invited Alice and then Alice invited pretty much everyone else. So around 4:30 pm yesterday after school, Kate and her mom picked up Joe and then me before we all headed out to the Corn Maze. Alice picked up David, Lily, Casey, and Danny. I'm not sure, but I think Jason came with his sister Natalie and Brittney.

So Kate, Joe, and I were the first ones to show up at the Maze, and then then it was Jason, Natalie, and Brittney, and finally Alice, David, Lily, Casey, and Danny. Around 6, we all had our tickets and were ready to start doing some court activities. But between 5 and 6, plenty of things happened. We were waiting for people to show up and whatnot, so Joe, Kate and I started messing around and flicking each other with our Maze tickets. We chased each other around for a bit and then Jason's group showed up. Brittney always pokes me in English class, so she thought it was hilarious to poke me at the Maze too. We were all standing in a circle for a while, but then I went to sit down at a picnic table. I don't remember where Kate and Joe were, but Jason, Brittney and Natalie randomly came up to me. I was straddling the bench, so Jason sat across from me (he was also straddling the bench), and Brittney and Natalie stood surrounding me. So they all just stared at me...until one of them poked me...and then they all started poking me. I tried to poke back, but I only have so many poking fingers!!

Pretty soon, the rest of the gang showed up with Alice and then we all hung for a bit. Alice's mom brought food for us all, so we ate a bit while David, Joe, Danny, and Casey all got glowing light sabers. They battled for a while and I spent my time laughing at them and being poked with their sabers and I think I managed to steal one or two. Those things are freakin' cool!!

At 6, we were ready to get the rest of the tickets, but Lily lost all her money somehow. I gave her the rest of my money ($9) and then Jason gave her some as well as Brittney, I think. No matter, we took care of Lily and once we all had our tickets, we headed over to the racecar thingies. I forgot exactly why, but I was-- Oh yeah!! Okay so Brittney wouldn't quit poking me as we walked over to our first courtyard activity. Jason ended up holding me back as I tried to go after Brittney to get my revenge. He wrapped his arms around me and I won't lie, it felt nice, but I didn't think anything of it. Once he finally let me go, I made some remark about him not being man enough, but he heard me and ended up chasing me around our circle of friends.

Okay, so we got to the racecar thingies, and mine was a total rip off! My car was missing a pedal and all that was left was the spring that was coiled around the pole where the pedal should've been. So my foot kept slipping and I was soooo sloooow!! It was kind of fun but still cheap.

After we did that, we made our way over to the Maze map so we could decide what to do next. We could've gone into the Corn Maze, but it wouldn't have been a whole lot of fun because it wasn't haunted yet. We had to wait until 7 for that.

Now you have to understand something. Everyone who was there was from the band hall, and everyone in the band hall (with the exception of Jay) uses lots of innuendo. We mess around with each other all the time. That's just what we do. So while we were standing around the map, Jason and Casey and David and I all messed around with each other, me being the center of it all.

Finally, we decide to go in the Giant. I said I needed a scare buddy (which is true because I don't like surprises most of the time) and Jason was the first one to call dibs on me. We started walking towards the Giant and I think I heard Joe say, "Oh, no fair, Jason!" but I can't be sure. Jason and I went through the Giant first and we held on to each other the whole way.

Another thing you have to understand is that I'm a very touchy feely person. I mean, if you saw me and David on a daily basis, then you would understand. I love physical contact (not sex or groping) and I have no idea why. For a girl who's so distant, I sure like to be close with my friends.

When we got out, Jason gave me his coat and I put it on pretty much just because I think it's a freakin' awesome coat. Once everyone else was out of the Giant, Alice and Lily went to ask if we could go back in when the Giant was haunted, but no such luck.

Next, we made our way to the jungle gym where I was poked, chased, and I raced Jason down the kiddie slides....and I cheated so that I would win. Hahahahaha!!! We spent a lot of time in there and then went to wait right in front of the actual Maze entrance. There's a flagpole that's surrounded by stinky corn kernels. So for the next 10-15 minutes, we spent our time burying various members of the group and throwing corn at each other. I got chased and poked yet again, and I also stole Joe's light saber again. When he started looking for it, I swear I stood there in front of him for like a whole minute before he noticed that I had his damn saber.

Just a little after 7, we entered Phase 1 of the Corn Maze. Jason still wanted to be my scare buddy so we went in together. I can't deny it because everyone was witness to it, but Jason and I were holding on to each other almost the intire time. Half of me didn't think much of it (because, again, I love physical contact), and the other half of me...well...liked it a little more than that. I think it's safe to say that I kind of like Jason. Whenever I pulled away for a little bit, he pulled me right back to him, which was nice. He also kissed me on the top of my head...like three times.

I don't remember how, but I got separated from the group and ended up walking behind Brittney and Natalie. Not too long after that, we found Casey and started to follow him around because he seemed like he had a better idea of where to go then we did. Somehow, Casey and I got separated from Brittney and Natalie. Before last night, Casey and I had never really talked to each other even though we see each other everyday. But while he were walking around, we talked and joked and, wouldn't ya know it? We ended up walking around with our arms around each other's waist, and it wasn't nearly as awkward as it normally would've been.

I had to call Alice once, but we finally made it out of Phase 1, and who do you think was waiting? Jason. He was quick to take my attention back. There was still no sign of Brittney and Natalie, so I sat myself down on the grass in front of the exit of Phase 1. David and Danny were to the left, sitting in chairs. Alice and Lily had back into the Maze to try and find the missing two of our group. Jason came and sat by me and hinted that he wanted me to snuggle up to him, but I ignored it the first few times before I finally gave in. (At this point, I'd given him his coat back because I was too hot in it.)

While Jason was sitting to my left, Kate came and sat to my right. She started talking to me about her experience in the Maze and I gave her all of my attention. I was glad for the distraction because I didn't want to Jason to try anything to fill an awkward silence...

Since I was paying close attention to Kate, Jason got up and went over to David and Danny. I felt a bit better then, like I wasn't suffocating from awkwardness.

As soon as Jason was gone, Casey came over and layed right in front of me. I pretended to kick him and Kate joined in. We messed around a little before I got up and went to give David a hug.

Side Note: Hugging David as much I do is great because we can mess around and hug each other all the time without it ever meaning anything awkward. I love that a lot.

So I was standing behind David with Jason sitting in the chair to my left and Danny sitting in the chair to my right. Somehow, Jason ended up in the chair that Danny was in and Casey ended up in the chair that Jason was in. I was thinking really hard about how the night had been going so far, so nobody really tried to talk to me, which was fine.

When Brittney and Natalie came out, we waited until Brittney could get a band-aid because she tore her finger on the fence or something, and then we were ready for Phase 2 of the Corn Maze. It was great because like six of us huddled together and considered going through the Maze like that, but it didn't happen that way. Haha.

After I got my ticket hole punched, I went in and Jason got ahold of me right away. That's how we went through all of Phase 2, except this time the whole group stayed together, and we'd picked up a few more just before that. I have no idea who they were, but everyone else seemed to.

Casey led the way through Phase 2 until we reached the line for Scream Acres (which was kind of lame, I think...) I won't spend time describing the entire experience through Scream Acres, but I will say that the chainsaws and the truck were pretty badass. Other than that, I think they could've done a better job.

So when we all got out of Scream Acres, we found out that Natalie had sprained her ankle while we were gone. (She didn't want to go with us through Phase 2) Jason held on to me for a while longer before he went to take care of his sister. Eventually, I realized that I'd lost my ticket somewhere in Scream Acres. So while everyone else (except Natalie) went into Pitch Black (which they said was REALLY lame), I went back and layed down in the Jungle gym.

I watched a guy play hackeysac (sp?) and then I just looked up at the stars. I couldn't see many of them though, and that made me kind of sad. While I was laying there, I prayed. Now, I'm not an uber-religious person. The only thing I believe in is God. I don't believe in Jesus or the Bible. I just feel like I need someone to talk to about anything, and God is that person. So I silently prayed for guidance. I figured that this next week can go one of three ways:

1) Both Joe and Jason will ask me out
2) Only one of them will ask me out
3) I'll get lucky, and neither of them will ask me out

So I pretty much asked God to help me sort out my feelings and find a way to reject who I need to reject in such a way so that none of my friendships are ruined any. I hope I can do this...

When everyone got out of Pitch Black, they came to find me (except I think Jason went to see how Natalie was doing).

I can't remember exactly, but at one point it was just Joe who layed next to me and then it was Lily. Next was Casey. I think I was talking to Joe or something when Casey randomly yet slowly grabbed my hand. Again, I didn't protest because 1) it made me feel better, and 2) I didn't even realize it a few seconds. He messed around and made me laugh a little bit and then kissed the back of my hand, which I didn't mind at all. Hmmmm....

I finally sat up and Lily came to sit on my right while Casey sat on my left. I had Joe call Jay because Jay was supposed to bring Cassie's markers that he stole. We have to use these specific markers for our Music History project, but Jay keeps forgetting to bring them. While Joe was leaving a message on Jay's phone, I noticed for the first time that Joe was wearing shorts and a short-sleeved shirt. He said something about not being able to move his hands so I felt them, and sure enough, they were freezing.

Item #3 to understand: I am such a mom. Almost all my friends can attest to that.

Keeping in mind item #3, I took Joe's free hand in mine and tried to warm it up. I promise that this was just because I was a little worried. Come on! It's the last day of October! This time last year, there was snow on the ground! Plus it was like 10pm... It was cold, alright!!

So after I'm pretty sure that he's not going to get frostbite, I got up and off of the Jungle gym. (Sometime before this, a couple of kids came and talked to us a little and I helped one onto the monkey bar-type-things).

I don't remember who I was talking to, but all of a sudden, Joe came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me. That felt slightly uncomfortable, but I was too tired to care...and I just didn't know what to do about it...

Mercifully, Kate came over and told Alice and I that her mom was here to pick us up. (Sometime before this, Jason and Natalie had to leave. He came over and gave me a big hug and then left). I said my good-byes and gave Casey my phone number after Lily declared her love for me. Ahhh I love that chick. We've been friends for a looong time. :)

So Alice, Joe, and I left with Kate and her mom. In the car, I sat in the back in the middle with Alice on my left and Joe on my right. Kate sat in the front with her mom. We were all pretty tired, but we still had to recap the night for Kate's mom. (I can't remember her name!!) x_x

While I was staring out the windowshield, Joe randomly took my hand in his, and damnit, I let him. I sound like a total slut, don't I? Well just you wait! The best (worst) is yet to come!

So during the time it took to get to Joe's house, he'd lain his head on my shoulder, linked his fingers with mine, and just before he got out of the car, he kissed me on the cheek. Being the retarded and sleep-deprived zombie that I was, I let him to all of this AND I gave him a hug before he got out of the car....

After that, we went to Kate's house and ate sweets, apples and carmel, drank everything from grape juice to soda to water, watched the Disney channel, picked on Kate's bird, and texted Casey. It was really fun even though we were all sooo freakin' tired!!

I ended up being the last one fall asleep. While Kate and Alice were asleep, I got up and turned of all the lights that were on. I tried to turn the tv off, but I couldn't figure out how to, so I just left it on and went to sleep.

So that's pretty much what went down Halloween night.

Here's how I see things:

Joe: He's a nice guy, but he's too awkward for my taste. I'm the kind of girl who likes to take things a tad slower than others. Joe kind of crossed the line when he kissed me on the cheek. I mean, everything else was like walking the line. I probably should've said something to him...but I'm too damn nice!!!! D: If he asks me out, there's no doubt in my mind that I'll reject him. How? I have no clue!

Jason: I'm surprised he's even interested in me! I mean, he's too good looking. Haha not really. I just wouldn't see him as someone who'd be crushing on me. He's also a bit of a playa. I mean...he told me that he was looking to better his realtionships; to work on them, but I'm not so sure... He's well aware that I don't plan on having sex for a looong time, so if he still likes me after knowing that, then he might be worth it... But last night was the first time we ever officially talked. I can't determine much after just one night. If he asks me out, I'll tell him that I have to get to know him much better first.

....Casey: ....I don't know... He didn't do anything that would make me positive that he likes me as more than a friend. Honestly, throughout the whole night, I felt the most comfortable, and pathetically, the most safe, when I was with him. He also made me laugh a lot. There was absolutely nothing that he did that made me feel uncomfortable. I doubt he'll ask me out, but if he does... I think I'd be more likely date him if anyone...

Of course, I still have feelings for Jay, but I'm pretty damn sure that ship has sailed. And now that I think about it, I never did get the markers from him last night....

Ahhh...The wonders of high school drama. Please, spare me!

So first of all, I love Jennifer Armintrout. Not in a kinky way, but in a You-totally-fucking-rock-my-blue-socks-off!! kind of way. Her blogging style is hilarious and her books are STELLAR!! Even if she did kinda rip on Laurell K. Hamilton (my other favorite author). Not my issue, so moving on!!

Okay. Yesterday, my high school held its homecoming parade because the actual dance is this weekend. Saturday, to be exact. Am I going? Hell no!! I decided to boycott all dances in 7th grade. Why? Ugh it's a long story that I'm pretty sure no one wants to hear. I don't even want to hear it. BUT I'll tell a story of someone else's drama because it's a story that needs to be told... Nah not really. It's just what I feel like writing about.

'Twas the night before Thursday when all through the room, not a creature was stirring, not even a....uh....broom.... Yeah we'll just skip that part. On a Wednesday that took place a couple weeks ago, my best friend Cassie and I were in the band room talking about girl stuff. Now, she's been seeing this guy Kansas for just over seven months and she's bananas about him. He's a senior and she's a sophomore. A classified hottie, my bff. Anyway, we're talking and she tells me that she's worried about Kansas. Cassie wants to go to homecoming REALLY bad. She even got this gorgeous white dress and a white full body corset to wear under it. (Homecoming theme this year is called Downtown Rhapsody or something like that. It includes glow in the dark and flourescentness. So white is going to be an interesting color to wear. The dance is going to be a total rave even though we convince the district into thinking otherwise). But the thing is, Cassie wants Kansas to ask her to the dance formally. No, excuse me. She said cutely rather than formally. So I offered to talk to him about it.

Keep in mind, I do not have a thing for Kansas. The only reason we tolerate each other is because of Cassie. So the only reason I have his number in my phone is because Cassie uses it sometimes to text him, seeing as she doesn't have her own cell phone.

So I text him after school and after manipulating the situation a bit in order to gain his trust, I ask him if he plans on asking Cassie to the dance. He said that he was thinking about it, but that he just really didn't want to go to the dance. I can sympathize with that. Not only does he just flat out hate dances, he doesn't have the money to pay for a ticket and he won't let Cassie pay for him. As he's telling me this, both of us are instant messaging with Cassie online. I'm trying to explain to her why Kansas doesn't want to go, and all she can think about is, "I don't understand why this is so hard for him. Is it too much for me to ask my boyfriend to go homecoming with me?"

Most of you are probably agreeing with her, but you have to understand just how much Kansas hates dances. Forcing him to go would be like putting a claustrophobic person in a dark closet. I used this analogy in order to help her understand Kansas's side of the whole thing. And then I added that he was willing to go the dance with her but that there were just complications. (ei: money, fear...). If Kansas was willing to go to the dance just because Cassie wanted him to, then we would be sacrificing quite a bit for her. When I told her that, I asked if there was anything she had ever sacrificed for him. She avoided the question, which means no, she hadn't sacrificed anything for him. To be pissed at your significant other because they're reluctant to do something they're afraid of doing.... That's extremely selfish. My best friend was sitting there thinking only about herself and not being considerate of how her boyfriend feels. That is the number one reason relationships fail.

Naturally, she wasn't too happy when I informed her of this. It should be common sense, but whatever. I told her that Love is a word that should only be spoken to the person you want to spend the rest of your life with (not including family and friends). So keeping my definition in mind, I told her that if she really loved Kansas that she wouldn't be so damn selfish. It's okay to want to go to your high school dance, but to not give a shit about your boyfriend's or girlfriend's thoughts on the matter is messed up, especially if you dare to say you love that person. The last thing I said to her was the following: "Two people who love each other will do almost anything to make the other person happy, and that's not what either you or Kansas have been doing. So what does that tell you?"

Of course she didn't respond, but what I was getting at was that they DO NOT really love each other. They are a couple and they are very fond of each other, but if they have constant drama like this, which they do, then they're just fooling themselves.

Still completely disagree? Well listen to this. After I sign off of Meebo.com, I'm just talking to Kansas, and we're trying to come up with alternatives to the homecoming dance. Like maybe he could take Cassie to the park by our school and they could have their own homecoming. Or, seeing as Kansas is in band, I wondered if he could get the band director to let him use one of the rooms in the band hall on Saturday night. But Kansas whiped that notion right off the table. So we were back to square one, and I was getting the feeling that he didn't even want to do something special for Cassie.

I decided to ask the big question. "Do you love Cassie or do you not know? I don't blame you if you're not sure..." That's what I sent him. Now, I added that last part in order to make him feel a little better about being able to tell me the truth. It worked because he said that he didn't know.

I can't remember all that came after that, but somehow we got to talking about more disturbing things. Not only about how deluded Cassie is as to how much she thinks Kansas "loves" her, but also about his deception.

Kansas's ex-girlfriend is named Annette. Just the weekend before, Kansas had gone to Annette's homecoming at her school, but he'd told Cassie that he was going with a bunch of friends. A friend of mine asked me to go to homecoming with him as friends, but I hate dances more than Kansas does, so I turned him down. Unfortunately, I kinda promised to go with him next year... Anyway, Cassie goes to homecoming with my friend because she knows him almost as well as I do. When they get to the dance, she see Kansas walking hand in hand with Annette. Sure, Cassie's confused and pissed off and hurt. She confronts him about it, but he never really says anything. All night, he wouldn't give her a real hug or a kiss or say "I love you" like he usually does. And to make matters worse, all of Annette's friends were going up to Cassie all night and telling her about how Annette wasn't having a good time because Cassie was there. More than once, they told Cassie that she just needed to leave.

Needless to say, the whole night was a shipwreck. After that night, Cassie is paranoid that something is going on between Annette and Kansas. I mean, all the evidence was there. Finally, Anthony (a friend of all of us) tells Cassie that Kansas had been cheating on her for about a month with Annette. Now, Anthony doesn't lie, so this news made Cassie really hysterical. I still wish Anthony would've told me about it, but I guess he thought I would tell Cassie.

As it turns out, I didn't need Anthony to tell me anything. Kansas did it himself. I got him to admit that he had cheated on Cassie with Annette. I promised I wouldn't say anything to Cassie, but that was just so I could maintain what little trust he had in me.

The next day at school, Cassie tells me what Anthony said and that pretty much everyone who knew Kansas knew that he was cheating on her. Cassie was half convinced, but because she wants her fairlytale to fix itself and get rid of all the bad evidence, she just wouldn't end it with Kansas. She was even wearing his letter jacket that day. I was listening to her and trying really hard to decide what to do. Finally, I just took her aside and told her what Kansas had told me. Now there was no doubt of the things everyone had been telling her.

I felt bad because I broke my promise to Kansas, (I hate breaking my promises), but I had to choose between my best friend of several years or my best friend's deceptful boyfriend. Obvioulsy, I chose the one most important to me.

I didn't hear what went down until I got home from school that day. Cassie called and told me what had happened when she confronted Kansas at school. Getting the truth out of him was like pulling teeth, from what I understand, but he finally told her the truth. Most of it, anyway. He admitted to her about cheating with Annette. Personally, I'm pretty sure he had sex with Annette, (Cassie and I both plan on staying celebate until marriage, if it ever comes around. Hence, the biggest reason that Kansas would cheat on Cassie with someone he's sure will put out for him.), but he told her that he didn't. The night before, Cassie had gone to his house to ask him a few questions, and he had grabbed her by face and looked her in the eyes and said, "I love you and I would never cheat on you." After she left his house, he texted me saything that he'd lied to her. I told him that was good, because at the time it was the best thing to do.

Poor Cassie believed it when it was obviously untrue. Kansas told me, of all people, that he didn't love Cassie. But she was still blind after all that. So when she called me after school and told me that she gave him another chance yet again, I was pissed, but I didn't really say anything. She did assure me, though, that she made it clear to Kansas that if he ever cheated on her again, or if she even heard rumor that he had, that they were over for good.

Ladies and gentlemen, that is the biggest pile of bull I've ever heard. Cassie has gone this far to hold onto the guy she thinks she loves. I seriously doubt that she'll be able to end it with him when, not if, he cheats on her again. I know her well enough to know that, and you can be sure that I'll give her hell if she just won't let him go when he treats her like shit yet again.

To bring us to the present day, Kansas had agreed to go to homecoming with Cassie until he found out a couple days ago that he had unexcused absences from some classes, so he can't go, not that he even cares, but Cassie sure does. She's bummed out, but she'll still go, she said. I hope she has a good time...but I have a feeling that Kansas will find his way to Annette or somebody else tomorrow night, and Anthony won't be able to tell Cassie or me because he's out of town for the next week and a half. I won't be anywhere near either of them because I'll be doing my own thing...so I guess we'll just have to wait until the truth leaks out again. *Sigh*

High school sucks donkey balls.