So first of all, I love Jennifer Armintrout. Not in a kinky way, but in a You-totally-fucking-rock-my-blue-socks-off!! kind of way. Her blogging style is hilarious and her books are STELLAR!! Even if she did kinda rip on Laurell K. Hamilton (my other favorite author). Not my issue, so moving on!!
Okay. Yesterday, my high school held its homecoming parade because the actual dance is this weekend. Saturday, to be exact. Am I going? Hell no!! I decided to boycott all dances in 7th grade. Why? Ugh it's a long story that I'm pretty sure no one wants to hear. I don't even want to hear it. BUT I'll tell a story of someone else's drama because it's a story that needs to be told... Nah not really. It's just what I feel like writing about.
'Twas the night before Thursday when all through the room, not a creature was stirring, not even a....uh....broom.... Yeah we'll just skip that part. On a Wednesday that took place a couple weeks ago, my best friend Cassie and I were in the band room talking about girl stuff. Now, she's been seeing this guy Kansas for just over seven months and she's bananas about him. He's a senior and she's a sophomore. A classified hottie, my bff. Anyway, we're talking and she tells me that she's worried about Kansas. Cassie wants to go to homecoming REALLY bad. She even got this gorgeous white dress and a white full body corset to wear under it. (Homecoming theme this year is called Downtown Rhapsody or something like that. It includes glow in the dark and flourescentness. So white is going to be an interesting color to wear. The dance is going to be a total rave even though we convince the district into thinking otherwise). But the thing is, Cassie wants Kansas to ask her to the dance formally. No, excuse me. She said cutely rather than formally. So I offered to talk to him about it.
Keep in mind, I do not have a thing for Kansas. The only reason we tolerate each other is because of Cassie. So the only reason I have his number in my phone is because Cassie uses it sometimes to text him, seeing as she doesn't have her own cell phone.
So I text him after school and after manipulating the situation a bit in order to gain his trust, I ask him if he plans on asking Cassie to the dance. He said that he was thinking about it, but that he just really didn't want to go to the dance. I can sympathize with that. Not only does he just flat out hate dances, he doesn't have the money to pay for a ticket and he won't let Cassie pay for him. As he's telling me this, both of us are instant messaging with Cassie online. I'm trying to explain to her why Kansas doesn't want to go, and all she can think about is, "I don't understand why this is so hard for him. Is it too much for me to ask my boyfriend to go homecoming with me?"
Most of you are probably agreeing with her, but you have to understand just how much Kansas hates dances. Forcing him to go would be like putting a claustrophobic person in a dark closet. I used this analogy in order to help her understand Kansas's side of the whole thing. And then I added that he was willing to go the dance with her but that there were just complications. (ei: money, fear...). If Kansas was willing to go to the dance just because Cassie wanted him to, then we would be sacrificing quite a bit for her. When I told her that, I asked if there was anything she had ever sacrificed for him. She avoided the question, which means no, she hadn't sacrificed anything for him. To be pissed at your significant other because they're reluctant to do something they're afraid of doing.... That's extremely selfish. My best friend was sitting there thinking only about herself and not being considerate of how her boyfriend feels. That is the number one reason relationships fail.
Naturally, she wasn't too happy when I informed her of this. It should be common sense, but whatever. I told her that Love is a word that should only be spoken to the person you want to spend the rest of your life with (not including family and friends). So keeping my definition in mind, I told her that if she really loved Kansas that she wouldn't be so damn selfish. It's okay to want to go to your high school dance, but to not give a shit about your boyfriend's or girlfriend's thoughts on the matter is messed up, especially if you dare to say you love that person. The last thing I said to her was the following: "Two people who love each other will do almost anything to make the other person happy, and that's not what either you or Kansas have been doing. So what does that tell you?"
Of course she didn't respond, but what I was getting at was that they DO NOT really love each other. They are a couple and they are very fond of each other, but if they have constant drama like this, which they do, then they're just fooling themselves.
Still completely disagree? Well listen to this. After I sign off of Meebo.com, I'm just talking to Kansas, and we're trying to come up with alternatives to the homecoming dance. Like maybe he could take Cassie to the park by our school and they could have their own homecoming. Or, seeing as Kansas is in band, I wondered if he could get the band director to let him use one of the rooms in the band hall on Saturday night. But Kansas whiped that notion right off the table. So we were back to square one, and I was getting the feeling that he didn't even want to do something special for Cassie.
I decided to ask the big question. "Do you love Cassie or do you not know? I don't blame you if you're not sure..." That's what I sent him. Now, I added that last part in order to make him feel a little better about being able to tell me the truth. It worked because he said that he didn't know.
I can't remember all that came after that, but somehow we got to talking about more disturbing things. Not only about how deluded Cassie is as to how much she thinks Kansas "loves" her, but also about his deception.
Kansas's ex-girlfriend is named Annette. Just the weekend before, Kansas had gone to Annette's homecoming at her school, but he'd told Cassie that he was going with a bunch of friends. A friend of mine asked me to go to homecoming with him as friends, but I hate dances more than Kansas does, so I turned him down. Unfortunately, I kinda promised to go with him next year... Anyway, Cassie goes to homecoming with my friend because she knows him almost as well as I do. When they get to the dance, she see Kansas walking hand in hand with Annette. Sure, Cassie's confused and pissed off and hurt. She confronts him about it, but he never really says anything. All night, he wouldn't give her a real hug or a kiss or say "I love you" like he usually does. And to make matters worse, all of Annette's friends were going up to Cassie all night and telling her about how Annette wasn't having a good time because Cassie was there. More than once, they told Cassie that she just needed to leave.
Needless to say, the whole night was a shipwreck. After that night, Cassie is paranoid that something is going on between Annette and Kansas. I mean, all the evidence was there. Finally, Anthony (a friend of all of us) tells Cassie that Kansas had been cheating on her for about a month with Annette. Now, Anthony doesn't lie, so this news made Cassie really hysterical. I still wish Anthony would've told me about it, but I guess he thought I would tell Cassie.
As it turns out, I didn't need Anthony to tell me anything. Kansas did it himself. I got him to admit that he had cheated on Cassie with Annette. I promised I wouldn't say anything to Cassie, but that was just so I could maintain what little trust he had in me.
The next day at school, Cassie tells me what Anthony said and that pretty much everyone who knew Kansas knew that he was cheating on her. Cassie was half convinced, but because she wants her fairlytale to fix itself and get rid of all the bad evidence, she just wouldn't end it with Kansas. She was even wearing his letter jacket that day. I was listening to her and trying really hard to decide what to do. Finally, I just took her aside and told her what Kansas had told me. Now there was no doubt of the things everyone had been telling her.
I felt bad because I broke my promise to Kansas, (I hate breaking my promises), but I had to choose between my best friend of several years or my best friend's deceptful boyfriend. Obvioulsy, I chose the one most important to me.
I didn't hear what went down until I got home from school that day. Cassie called and told me what had happened when she confronted Kansas at school. Getting the truth out of him was like pulling teeth, from what I understand, but he finally told her the truth. Most of it, anyway. He admitted to her about cheating with Annette. Personally, I'm pretty sure he had sex with Annette, (Cassie and I both plan on staying celebate until marriage, if it ever comes around. Hence, the biggest reason that Kansas would cheat on Cassie with someone he's sure will put out for him.), but he told her that he didn't. The night before, Cassie had gone to his house to ask him a few questions, and he had grabbed her by face and looked her in the eyes and said, "I love you and I would never cheat on you." After she left his house, he texted me saything that he'd lied to her. I told him that was good, because at the time it was the best thing to do.
Poor Cassie believed it when it was obviously untrue. Kansas told me, of all people, that he didn't love Cassie. But she was still blind after all that. So when she called me after school and told me that she gave him another chance yet again, I was pissed, but I didn't really say anything. She did assure me, though, that she made it clear to Kansas that if he ever cheated on her again, or if she even heard rumor that he had, that they were over for good.
Ladies and gentlemen, that is the biggest pile of bull I've ever heard. Cassie has gone this far to hold onto the guy she thinks she loves. I seriously doubt that she'll be able to end it with him when, not if, he cheats on her again. I know her well enough to know that, and you can be sure that I'll give her hell if she just won't let him go when he treats her like shit yet again.
To bring us to the present day, Kansas had agreed to go to homecoming with Cassie until he found out a couple days ago that he had unexcused absences from some classes, so he can't go, not that he even cares, but Cassie sure does. She's bummed out, but she'll still go, she said. I hope she has a good time...but I have a feeling that Kansas will find his way to Annette or somebody else tomorrow night, and Anthony won't be able to tell Cassie or me because he's out of town for the next week and a half. I won't be anywhere near either of them because I'll be doing my own thing...so I guess we'll just have to wait until the truth leaks out again. *Sigh*
High school sucks donkey balls.
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