Okay so I haven't had any access to the internet for a while, so that's why I haven't been updating. Now, part of me wants to start from where I left off and update everything exactly....but the other part of me is just a lazy bastard who doesn't have the time or drive to do that for ya'll. So here's the deal: I will tell the short story today and if anyone wants to know more, then he or she can message me and ask. It's not a problem, though I doubt that'll happen, so everyone wins!!! Yaay....
So Jay and I are officially dating. Yep, we went to the movies on Friday night. He wanted to make it up to me about canceling our plans for the previous Friday. We went to the theater in Loveland to see Twilight at 8:20 pm. (My parents assumed we would be at the theater in town...but I didn't tell them because then they wouldn't let me go. I only told Alex because I trust him.) Jay showed up at 7 and met my dad. That part was really boring. My dad has always had these crazy ideas about what he would do when I finally brought a boy home for him to meet. He didn't do any of them. (And Ashley just cleaned the computer screen while I was typing...) They just shook hands and my dad told Jay to call him "Sir". *Sigh* I was expecting something more interesting...
Side note: I talked to my dad about Jay yesterday and he said he was expecting some nerdy guy instead of...well...I don't know...Jay, I guess. That surprised me. I haven't said anything that would make my dad think that... I guess he just didn't expect me to do better than a nerd or something like that. As if it matters. Jay is a nerd in his own way and he knows it. And I love it. So there!!
So we left and headed to the theater. We didn't talk a whole lot but we weren't completely silent either. It was nice. Cassie called me and told me that Twilight sucked, but I kinda already knew that it would. She also gave me full permission to make out with Jay (because the movie wouldn't be worth watching anyway...). I laughed but didn't say much of anything else. I had no intention of making out with anyone. Not yet, anyway. I'd rather let things settle first...
Then Cassie wanted to talk to Jay, so I gave him the phone while he was driving...and I have no idea what she told him. I'll have to remember to ask... Anyway, we reached our destination soon enough and walked into the theater to get the tickets he'd pre-ordered. As we stood in the long line to get into the actual room itself, Jay and I messed around a little. He had his lovely bright orange hunting hat on. I don't remember what I said, but he didn't hear me and I just shook my head and smirked. He put his face real close to mine...or would've if he didn't have his hat on. The bill of it touched my forehead and we just kind of looked at each other for a second until I laughed.
When we got our seats, (in the third row back), Jay decided to go get some popcorn for himself and a drink that we ended up sharing, though he drank most of it, which is fine. While he was gone, I was entertained by all the girls talking their big heads off. They're all in love with Edward, naturally, (even though the guy that plays him is fugly...to me, anyway...) so they were all standing in groups and chatting away about everything that's Twilight-related. I love Twilight, but not quite that much. The Twilight story is the fairytale that all girls secretly want. That's the only reason that so many adore the series, but I don't want it because I have my own fairytale.
Anyway, by the time Jay got back, nearly all the seats were filled. It's a good thing we got there early. While we were waiting for the movie to start, Cassie texted me and said, "Don't be a fool, wrap your tool..." I started laughing and showed Jay the text. He called Cassie (without knowing that the number he has is for Cassie's house phone because she doesn't have a cell phone...) and as soon as someone picked up, he goes, "Are you a poet?" and he refers to the text that Cassie sent me. Apparently, it was Cassie's mom who'd answered the phone and Jay thought it was Cassie...
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I thought that was hilarious.... He did talk to Cassie, but not about anything important...I think... The movie started and all the girls giggle because they know all the dirty little secrets about Bella and Edward and the Cullens and about what REALLY happened with them. I kept getting annoyed at all these people. Jay didn't get it, but that's okay. That movie really was horrible. In the beginning of the movie, I was fingering the hole in my pants. It was right on my thigh and I had to so something to keep my hands busy...
Jay fixed that problem and held his hand out to me. We held hands and I put my head on his shoulder. It was nice. We stayed like that until my phone vibrated in my purse. (By the way, I hate having to use a purse.) Wouldn't ya know it? It was my dad. He sent me a text that said, "Behavin?" And I replied with an, "Of course!!".... Even though I know he wouldn't approve of the hand holding...
We didn't hold hands again during the movie, but I did lay my head on his shoulder at times. By the time the movie was over, I had a little bit of a headache from my glasses and it was time to go home. I was hoping to have a little time left over to spend with Jay, but my curfew was 11:00 and it was 10:30.
As we walked out of the theater, we had our arms around each other and I was clearly bummed about going home already. As we walked to his truck, he asked if I'd told my parents about what happened with the Navy. I think he meant the night that he had to cancel our date. I told him I didn't think I did, but that was a stupid answer. Of course I told them. I didn't think about it until later when he was driving. They know what really happened and that Twilight was Jay's apology, in a way. It's all good.
While we were waiting at a red light, he held his hand out to me again. I gave him my right hand because my left hand was holding my head up. I was just a little tired and cuddled against the seat. He ran his fingers over my skin and I did it back. It was an unconscious action for me and it felt right. He took his hand back in order to shift, but once we were on the highway, he took my hand right hand again. Eventually, I switched hands and we linked fingers. We stayed like that until we got back into Greeley and he had to shift again.
I ended up texting my mom and asking her for another 30 minutes with Jay. She allowed it and said that I had to be in the apartment by 11:30. Jay drove to Glenmere and we sat in his truck. His music was turned down low and everything was dark, which is great since I prefer the dark anyway.
In those 30 minutes, we held hands and kinda sorta cuddled... and he asked me out, just like I knew he would. He kept asking me what I was thinking and when I asked him the same question, he goes, "So...what about being my girlfriend?" I knew he was a tiny bit nervous, but he knew what my answer would be...
I laughed and told him he was a dork...and then I teased him and said, "Oh, I don't knooow....." and finally said, "I accept." Yes, I had to follow the dork theme we had going on. :P
He was happy with that and we sat in silence, me with my head on his shoulder and him playing with my hands. After a bit of silence, he said, "Forever...or just until I leave...?" He was referring to the Navy. I told him forever...
I don't remember the sequence that all this happened in, but the best part was when he smoothed his thumb over my lips. I know he wanted a kiss. He hinted at it enough, but I couldn't bring myself to just say it...or do it. I haven't had my first kiss yet and he knows that, but I also told him that I'm ready whenever he is. I just didn't know what to do. I was really hoping that he would just do it, but I later found out that he wasn't sure if I even wanted a kiss. I did, I assure you... When I asked what Monday would be like, he said that it would be like school, which is sucky. He knew that's not what I meant, but he didn't know exactly what I did mean either. When he asked, I pointed out that we're different with each other when other people aren't around. He agreed to that and then asked what I wanted Monday to be like. I said, "Like this..." and he said, "We can do that. We can be like this." That's not exactly word for word, but that's the gist of it. I don't know if we really will be like a couple, but I hope so. If not, then I'm not even going to put up with it. I won't be part of a so-so relationship. I won't do it ever again.
I ended up walking into the apartment at about 11:35. I got a little crap for that, but I didn't care. I'd had a wonderful night, personally.
Jay texted me when he got home and we talked a bit about the night. He brought up the whole kissing thing and I told him why I didn't do anything. We both know it'll happen, but we don't know when. I don't want it to happen at school or anywhere public because my first kiss is not something I want to share with anyone but Jay. In order for this to happen, we'll have to spend more time together alone, which I don't mind one little bit. I'm just impatient, of course. Jay knows that as well as Cassie does, so he'll understand when he reads this.
We stopped texting at about 1:00 am and I fell asleep fast.
On Saturday, (yesterday), my mom, my dad, my brother, and myself went to Loveland to look at cars. I kid you not, we were there aaaaaall day. It was horrible. My mom ended up getting a 2-year-old black Honda Civic. She traded in the white Honda that was supposed to be my car once I got my license.... But I don't really care. While we were there, I made quite the impression on our salesman. His name is Dave and he's a grandpa. He hugged me a couple times and told my dad that he really liked my personality. It sounds bad, I know, but I swear it wasn't. It was just that he looked at me in a daughterly type of way. My dad was cool with it. Dave got to see the side of me that isn't 15 at all. I think that's what impressed him: how observant I am...
There was another salesman that kind of pushed Dave out of the way and made the sale with my mom. I called the other salesman a dick...and I got Dave to admit it. :) I'm so persuasive when I want to be.
Jay didn't text me until about 5 pm. As it turned out, all I had to do was call him and he would've come to pick me up so I wouldn't have to spend all day in that damn dealership. I thought, "Oh great. So I didn't have to be here all day...well it's too late now..."
Jay ended up getting kicked out of his house because his sister was having a birthday party. I wanted to invite him over to my mom's, but I know my dad would've had a fit, seeing as he would be there too. I love my dad immensely, but I hate how ridiculous he can be sometimes.
Jay spent the night at Marie's.... And I was fine with that.... Because I know he's completely faithful to me.... But I know for a fact that Marie doesn't like the idea of Jay having another girl in his life.... I never want to take Marie's place and I never want her to take mine, but I do wish I could just forget about her. I don't want to talk to her or think about her or hear about her. It's not that I hate her, I just don't trust her, but I know she's important to Jay. The less I have to do with her, the better eveything will be...for all three of us...
I haven't heard from Jay today yet, but I'm wondering if he would like to come over. My dad's gone and we're just hanging out at my mom's. I think we're going to watch a scary movie or something....but I bet he's busy....
This morning, my mom was on crack. Not really, but she was acting like it.
Cracky thing #1: She was watching "Redneck Weddings".....
She made me go into her room and watch the end of the episode. It was a little funny... The best part was the wedding vows. The bride's went something like this: "You are the water added to the dirt that makes the mud of my life...." Which is another way to say, "You complete me," but seriously? Mud? >.> Oh yeah, and then she got her new hubby a toolbox for a wedding gift... *Sigh* Woooow....plus her dress didn't fit her, so they had to use ductape and wire to make it fit.....
Cracky thing #2: My mother was laughing like a retard....
Cracky thing #3: She called me a hooker....because the computer wasn't hooked up to the power cord...and she thought that was hilarious.....
Cracky thing #4: She turned on the water to fill the sink and then went into the bathroom....and when she finally came out....Kahlua was just sitting in front of the sink.....and staring at all the bubbles that were flowing out of it... -.- I have this on video, folks.
Cracky thing #5: She was trying to sing...which she has absolutely no talent for.... Come to think of it, neither does my dad. So where do I get my vocal abilities from? I have no fucking clue.
Cracky thing #6: I don't really know what the hell she was doing, but she was walking around really weirdly and laughing....as my brother and I pretended to shoot ourselves when she wasn't looking...
Yeah.....I can't wait to see what else she's gonna do today...
My brother is sick, but I think he just has a cold. I don't get sick easily, so I'm not worried. Plus, I have like three concerts coming up that I need to be able to sing for...
I also think I have a skin desease -.- But it's not contagious...
And Jeff wants to go see Madagascar 2 over Thanksgiving break, which is great because that's another movie I want to see and I'm sure it'll be worth it. The only thing is, I don't know if I'll have any fun... He's inviting all of his friends....that I don't know....so I'll pretty much just be like a third wheel. I hate that. Cassie used to do that to me and I refuse to let it happen anymore. I don't need to put myself through all of that. Hence the big reason I don't go to dances anymore...
So to wrap things up, Jay and I plan on being together for....uh...ever. We've even talked a little bit about having kids.... I know you're probably thinking, "Stupid gullible teenagers. They're just gonna get themselves into trouble." And you know what? We probably will...but not the way you'd think. I love Jay (and you know how touchy I am about that kind of stuff) and I think he loves me too. We'll see how things go, but I can only hope for the best because that's what I want.
I'll blog when I can...
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